When I wrote my last post, I was in awe as to the number of kind responses I received. It's hard to tell people about something personal that happened to you and even harder to tell it on a mass stage. It was relieving to have my message go over so well, at least to those who were vocal about their reaction.
I thought over a lot as to what I wanted to write about next, if anything. While I love my kids and a lot of things that they do (let's be honest, I'm not so excited about the need to cry over who sits in what seat and even less impressed by the need to pull and/or push the offending person who dared to sit in the wrong seat out of said chair), I'm just not so excited to blog about it all. I love telling it in person so if you want updates of that kind, email me!
So that left scary things like my opinions and thoughts. Scary because that leaves me wide open to criticism, which is only natural since not everyone is going to agree with me. I get that, know that, and expect that. By no means does that mean I'm anxious and eager to have people yell at me, and say mean and degrading things to me. I'm used to harsh words. The world I grew up in revolved around people assuming that if you disagreed, you were judging, and the way around that was to shut down the conversation in the quickest means possible, which meant nasty or condescending words. Internet conversations tend to be the same. I have met few people who are willing to disagree without any loss of friendship or respect.
The other part of my dilemma is what those thoughts would be centered around. Here was a trickier problem. I could just write about whatever popped up in my head, but that would most likely result in a blank screen and no posts.
After a lot of thinking, I've decided to start a new blog. The new blog will be about my journey of healing from the abuse that I've suffered. I am not an expert on it. I couldn't even tell you where I am in my journey. Probably somewhere in the murky middle. What I do know is that abuse, particularly sexual abuse, isn't talked about enough. We don't talk about how to prevent it, how to deal with it when it does happen, and how to move forward toward full healing. These conversations particularly didn't happen in a way that was helpful to me as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I've read self-help books and found some things that helped, but there was a lot of things that went against what I believed. My goal is to help people, but at the very least, get a conversation going.
I will probably get rid of this blog in the next few weeks. I haven't completely made up my mind about that, but don't be surprised if it's just gone one day.
When I get the new blog up and running, I'll post a link.