Procrastination

Ashton and I were asked to give talks this Sunday and while I've started writing mine up, I'm now taking a break. I haven't gotten too far into it, but in my defense, what sounded good and complete in my head, has turned out to be far from the truth. I always spend a lot of time thinking about what I want to say and then write it down on paper. It's taking a lot longer than I thought it would to put this to paper.

Although it's taking a while to write down the talk, I'm more nervous about getting up there and actually giving it. I hate the whole feeling of shaking knees, heart pounding, and what ends up being a race to finish my talk and sit down. A deacon had it right when he said at the end of his testimony this past Sunday, "I can't stand this anymore" and sat down. I get nervous when I make a comment during Sunday School or Relief Society, so the idea of actually standing up in front of a large group of people and talking for however many minutes (we weren't actually given a specific amount of time to talk...do I hear 2 minute talk?) is rather nerve racking.

Since I'm so nervous about this, I'm in the process of trying to bribe Ashton into giving the talk for me, but he's not going for it. I've even offered to write it up just as long as he gets up there and reads it for me, but even after throwing in the promise of cake, he's still not going for it. That just means that I'm going to either have to wear him down, or suck it up and do it myself. Wearing him down sounds like way more fun though.

In other news, we are still looking for work. Right now, Ashton's still interviewing with Amazon for a job in Seattle. He's actually been granted a face-to-face interview and we're waiting to hear back about what day that is! This is definitely a big and important step towards getting this job, so we'd definitely appreciate any prayers on our behalf.